Day 30 - on my mind today

Day 29 - accomplishments I'm most proud of

Day 28 - this time next year

Today I woke up with stabbing pains. I'm thinking kidney stone or UTI!

Day 27 - I'm thankful for

Parade today! Keegan was in it with the football team. We stayed for a little while then headed to Charleston. We went to the mall and got Keegan some clothes and a coat since it's starting to get chilly. Then we went to Miyabi for dinner. It was nice to get out of the house.

Day 26 - rules for travelling with me

Today was the start, official start of Raylrode Daze. We went out for a while, while dad was at church. We got some food. That was about it. I remember it being much more exciting as a child.....

Day 25 - what balance means to me

Day 24 - my favorite authors...

Day 23 - don't tell anybody but.....

Day 22 - meal planning for this week

Day 21 - podcasts I love

I don't listen to podcasts so I changed this one to Blogs I love

Day 20 - guilty pleasures

Day 19 - I feel coziest when

This morning Tony and I were arguing, again, like usual, and Antonio's response like always was "I love you but you don't believe me." It pisses me off because all I can think is, "love is not always enough, it doesn't pay the bills, or fix the house and cut the grass." Sitting here now, I'm thinking maybe it is. I mean, when you love each other, you do things for each other. You cut the grass because it's part of taking care of home. You think about the other person and their thoughts, feelings, belongings, etc. My parents' stuff that he burned, trashed, or let ruin. If he loved me, he'd have thought about that stuff enough to protect it.

I don't think I can do this anymore. I found out when I thought he went to work yesterday, and he told me he was helping Blake, that he actually did go to work. Then he tells me "I told you I went to get a truck for Jason." No, that's not what he said. He said he went to help Blake pick up a truck and he was getting paid for it because he needed the money with all the stuff coming up. Why lie about that? He literally lies about EVERYTHING now. Seriously. Nothing that comes out of his mouth is honest. I mean, nothing. It makes no sense. I also found out that he's driving my truck back and forth to work because he volunteered to do so. It wasn't because the work truck is messed up, it's because Tony said he would drive the personal vehicle back and forth. This is so he can do what he wants when he gets off or run around while at work. Everyone that rides with him gives him money for gas plus his check. Where's all the money going? Seriously! If I could trust him just a little, it might be worth sticking around but I can't trust him at all! I guarantee if he leaves here Saturday alone saying he's going to his mom's birthday thing, that he won't be anywhere near there. I can't do this anymore. I stay stressed and always waiting on a motherfucker to be here for me. It's ridiculous!!

Day 18 - things I do that I wish made me money

Day 17 - Reasons to....love Fall

Sometimes I think I'm cursed, unlucky, whatever! So Monday I had a doctors appointment to find out what's going on. I dropped Tony off at the ER because he couldn't get in to see his doctor. We have bronchitis and he has an ear infection. He was supposed to be home the last three days to get better before going back to work but clearly he's feeling better since he's been gone ALL FUCKING DAY! His excuse is that he's got a lot of shit to pay for so he needs the money. Um, if he'd stop blowing it on stupid shit. I guess he doesn't realize that putting gas in the tank takes away from that money. I mean, he has to go in and pay for gas so how does he not realize where it's going? Besides, his probation is his fault. No one told him to forge checks like a moron. Secondly, as far as this house, it's been falling apart for over a year now. He could've been doing a little here and there but no, Tony's gonna do what Tony wants to do when Tony wants to do it.

My BP was up at the doctors office so they gave me a pill to lower it. It left me in bed, weak, BP high as hell, migraine from hell and vomiting up everything I swallowed. I told the doctor I won't be taking that mess again.

Then today I got a call from the dentist that my insurance is refusing to pay. So I called them to cancel my insurance which will be effective October 1. I hope they get the claim resubmitted before then but if not, I guess I'll have to pay it. I applied to Care Credit which is like a medical credit card. I got approved for $800 so I can charge some dental work and pay monthly then get a little more done and so forth.

Day 16 - posters on my wall growing up

Keegan's team played against Barnwell tonight. Unfortunately........they lost 28-0. ouch!

Day 15 - favorite cliches

Day 14 - best places to find inspiration

Day 13 - the best things about this week

Day 12 - must haves for a night in

Day 11 - things I finished so far this year

Day 10 - subjects I can talk about for hours

Day 9 - ain't nobody got time for that

also, Keegan's first football game was tonight. They lost 20-0 (ouch) but they played well....

Day 8 - books everyone should read

Day 7 - chores I actually enjoy

Day 6 - every night before I go to bed

Day 5 - Things to nourish

Keegan goes to his dad's this weekend! YAY! I also got my hair cut and highlighted! It's blonde! YAY! Different but I like it!

Day 4 - Projects to finish this month

Day 3 - If I had an extra hour in the day

Day 2 - I can't pass up

Today felt like it drug on FOREVER so I swear it's almost 11pm and I actually had to check and see if I did today's 30 Days.... I did, I just have no clue when. I know it was before I had to crawl under the house to save the dog from herself because I was still wearing a tank top! lol

Labor Day, End of Summer, 30 Days of Lists - Day 1: Today is Brought to You By

Today is Labor Day. It marks the unofficial end of Summer, the beginning of bonfires, hoodies, cuddling, hot cocoa, football and the colors of Fall! For us shopping addicts, it also marks the first day of the new Jamberry catalog, MyThirtyOne items and Labor Day sales, oh my! My Jamberry wraps party wrapped up (see what I did there) Saturday and I waited until today to place my reward order. I so wanted some new designs! I got all kinds of loot! I will officially be getting 17 wraps for $73 and that would have normally cost me like $214, so not too bad. I also got 3 months free shipping so when I place my order for Jennifer's party later this week or next week, I'll be paying solely for wraps. Shipping I think varies on how many wraps you buy but free shipping is always good in my book!

Today also marked the start of a new 30 Days of Lists. This year I decided to record my lists via recording (video)! Literally. I'm doing videos for each day instead of a book. (In my written journal, I wrote the responses down but I'm going to try to link my vids here.)

Day 1: Introduction

Day 1: Today is brought to you by: